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MUTTERING "EVERYTHING IS COMPUTER" TO MY THERAPIST UNTIL HE STARTS WRITING THE GOOD PRESCRIPTIONS.

@elight @actuallyautistic

OOC: thinking maybe high-functioning BPD, which is scaring the shit out of me.

@LRRRonEarth

Also BPD is one of the diagnoses that have been defined by outside people looking at someone who is struggling and interpreting them in the least welcoming terms possible. If you get that diagnosis, maybe look for a definition by ppl who are directly affected by BPD.

@elight @actuallyautistic

@melanie @LRRRonEarth @elight @actuallyautistic

PTSD with heavy anxiety and fear of abandonment sure shouldn't be a Cluster B personality disorder yannow?

@violetmadder @melanie @elight @actuallyautistic

OOC: I really think I need to step back and talk with my therapist before I reach any conclusions. I have the mood swings and the fear of abandonment, the shifting sense of self, but not the anger or dissociation or feelings of emptiness, and I don't do impulsive or risky behaviors (at least, not as far as I can tell). I have many longstanding friendships that have been stable for decades. It seems like I am probably some different thing.

@LRRRonEarth @violetmadder @melanie @elight @actuallyautistic
It's possible that you are both autistic and adhd. Being both affects the presentation of them from the classic.

@pathfinder @violetmadder @melanie @elight @actuallyautistic

Ooc: I am open to anything. For me, the diagnosis is less important than symptom mitigation. I suffer regularly.

@LRRRonEarth @violetmadder @melanie @elight @actuallyautistic
I would suggest you follow the actuallyautistic and actuallyadhd hashtags, if you aren't already. The best way of seeing yourself, is in others like you and I generally find that we can learn more about being able to make our lives better from each other, than from any so-called medical expert.

@pathfinder @LRRRonEarth @violetmadder @melanie @actuallyautistic Also the #actuallyaudhd hashtag: combined ADHD and autism. About half of autistics have ADHD...

@violetmadder @melanie @pathfinder @LRRRonEarth @actuallyautistic My research showed 45% autism -> ADHD. Oddly, there has been far less research of commodity in the other direction.

Violet Madder

@elight @melanie @pathfinder @LRRRonEarth @actuallyautistic

I got my ADHD diagnosis in 3rd grade, and back then they were considered mutually exclusive so the possibility of autism was NEVER mentioned. Only just now in my 40s hearing it's possible.

@violetmadder
I'm sorry it is like this. It makes such a difference when we understand ourselves. It makes me want to rampage.
@elight @pathfinder @LRRRonEarth @actuallyautistic

@melanie @violetmadder @elight @LRRRonEarth @actuallyautistic
I've read that the likelihood of having adhd as well as autism could be as much as 70-80%. The combination of the two muddies the waters. Although, it seems likely that one can be more dominant than the other, but still enough to effect the presentation.

@pathfinder @melanie @violetmadder @LRRRonEarth @actuallyautistic It varies depending on which population is the denominator. The research on pubmed seemed to indicated 45% had ADHD.

But, then, I suspect there has been limited research into comorbidity in both directions just more from the austic baseline first.

ADHD is not typically recognized as neurodivergent by most people, at least in the US. But then most people are ignorant of what ADHD is!

@elight @melanie @violetmadder @LRRRonEarth @actuallyautistic
What I've seen is that you have a higher probability if you are autistic of also being adhd, than adhd and also autistic. Which seems odd to me. I would say that it's early days looking into this and the juries still out. But, at least we've gone beyond the, you can't have both days.

@fluffykittycat @elight @melanie @pathfinder @LRRRonEarth @actuallyautistic

Hah despite my early diagnosis I still haven't gotten to try them. My current clinic will not prescribe stimulants, they only seem to want to give me SSNRIs.