@shiri I relate too well to your pain and situation. Disability is enough challenge to occupy a person without also adding financial issues and social alienation. But they all come as a package I guess. If you are feeling that spiral down into your self and the all encompassing problem, I hope that you can redirect your attention and escape into somthing lighter. If you can pull focus to a more positive anything, it can help soften the misery. Here is a picture of frogs In a witches hat for tangentially related reasons: