Leth @lethargilistic@kolektiva.social

doctor: "To be clear, this means switching off the drugs that inhibit your sex drive."

me, a depressed dumbass: "Yeah, I know. I didn't have much of one before taking the other stuff anyway."

*one week later*

me, an intellectual: FFFUUUCCCKKK

I'm not looking forward to figuring out how to stretch a conversation about this over an hour. He'll probably start most of the topics because he'll make the Effort to Care, but there's only so much to reply with when the show's level of Discourse is "Ah, yes, the blank slates broke up over the summer and are now dating separate blank slates. They are obviously into each other more than their flings. This is a conflict."

My friend and I watch TV shows each day to stay in touch. I'm always trying to pick shows I think he'll like. He...picks shows he thinks he'll like. Even if we've already watched a season and it's literally one of the Worst shows I've ever seen (Locke & Key). A weak 2/10, at best.

Is a little reciprocity too much to ask for? Because I've asked for it and apparently it is. Sigh.

At least it's so bad that I can watch it at 5x speed and not miss anything, lmao.

Spent most of today in an intentionally extended state of boredom. Trying to write about myself is so difficult. I perceive a monster and describe a monster. And I only end up writing a few paragraph fragments in all that time stewing.

Abolish personal statements. You're going to let me in or you aren't, tbh. Even if it's a school, the admissions culture is no different than the hiring market, so why should I be bothered to work hard just to be rejected?

This was my witch costume! I got lots of compliments.

The party was so fun! Lots of love and great food all around. ^w^

I've been putting together a witch costume for a Halloween party out of women's fashion I know nothing about. I knew it would be more involved, but I did not expect "just" lipstick to be a six-step process with multiple products, lol.

It sent me down a haircare rabbit hole, too. I've been self-conscious about how badly it's been sitting for a while, but now I think it might be salvageable if I unlearn bad habits.

Also, now I know girlmode is fun. ^w^

There's a conspiracy to depict non-human animals as exclusively violent beasts. But, like, they play with their kids, protect each other from harm, and cultivate inner lives to whatever extent they can. Doing better than a lot of people I've met.