.ex//weis🏴 @exweis@kolektiva.social

#introductions

I'm .ex//weis, a Bogdanovist operating under principles of Anarcho-Dragulism in the model of Rolling Fuck. I write and draw with a preference for cyberpunk and anime aesthetics. My writing is mostly unreleased, but you can see my art at instagram.com/exweisart.

For my other stuff: https://linktr.ee/exweis

Good morning. Didn’t expect to feel hopeless before 8am, but here we are.

I’m selling my two little EPs and a zine I wrote at a discounted price for the itch summer sale. My birthday is soon, I’m unemployed, and I’d love to make even a little money to help create a small financial buffer. Thanks to anyone who even takes a look!

https://itch.io/s/73759/summerbirthday-sale-2022

I don't know who needs to hear this, but: if you're republican you're literal dogshit.

Too angry to be on social media rn. Take care of yourselves and each other.

If you're an Evangelical Christian/Republican you're an orc. Fuck yourself.

The Supreme Court isn’t allowed to make any more rulings on anything. I’ve decided.

I’m pretty excited about this story I’m writing. Feels good to be doing something that has an end in sight.

the sentiment that some people just don't make it is such meritocratic bullshit. If I fail it is because I have been failed. Not because I lack the talent or whatever.

So, I reiterated that I can't hold a job for more than six months because of how depressed it makes me... and they said "I'm glad you know when to take breaks." What the fuck kind of response is that?

actually, fuck it. I need to rant about it somewhere. "It's okay to make money off of things that aren't your passions" is a thing a friend said to me recently and like... Yeah, I get the sentiment, however, hearing it made me feel like they hadn't listened to me at all about what I'd been saying about how having a job actually feels for me.

I don't want to guilt people into giving support. That sucks.

I just... I feel bad about complaining about this stuff. About talking about it on here when I'm clearly in a depressive spiral.

Deleted my posts from last night about depression and labor because... it doesn't feel like it matters. Gonna just try and focus on my art and my writing and if I can churn out enough of that to get people to want to support me that'll be great.

I updated the price on the anarcho-cyberpunk manifesto to $2 because I don't have a job and I want people who can to pay for it. But I also enabled free community copies so people who can't afford it can just grab it if they want it.

https://exweis.itch.io/an-anarcho-cyberpunk-manifesto

And I just want to finish a short story, a novella, a novel, anything... to show people that I am worth something. And I hate getting caught in these depressive spirals... because they get in the way.

Like, because I don't make anything that people care about or because I don't sell my labor (because it makes me suicidal to do so) I am worth less.

And I mean this in the sense that I feel... like I'm not of value in the sense that people unconsciously value people under capital in terms of what they can get out of them.

I feel completely worthless as a human being

thank you to everyone who boosted this<3

Hey, you know what? I hardly ever ask for help. I'm not in a good space mentally, but I am working on some stuff I think is cool. If you want me to get closer to being able to pay for a bill or something and get to see my art and writing early I would really appreciate your support!
https://www.patreon.com/exweis